MoreWeirdom

`Favorite spot [car]
*behind the driver seat


`Annoying fact
.im kind of anemic


well . I wanna share the fact that I like being at the back . I feel most comfortable behind the driver . or maybe at least at the left side .


I must be unlucky or something . when I finally get to like someone . they suddenly become busy or even fade away . I really hate this love topic -_- haha . but people still pester me to have my own love life as if its a pre requisite to good life . its also annoying that . despite me having a lot of suitors . they cant make me fall for them . but there is someone close . not close enough yet tho .


btw i have my monthly period . so dont annoy me . i wanna be happy . im talking to someone special later :)


----Godz`I-NicoLe-

WeirdlyMe

Weird (and annoying) Fact:
almost everyone calls me bebe now ~.~


New Favorite Hobby:
whenever I pass by a mirror . pout and clean my hair .


BTW . the balikbayans just got back . ate Nicole Nadine and Noreen .


just this month have I been to different malls . i've never been so out of our house so much in my entire life ~.~ its funny that in every mirror that I pass by . I keep playing with my hair and stuff . I feel awkward and stiff about my hair until now . it has color and stuff and its annoying ~.~ anyways . the other one is quite annoying . up until now i'm still called the baby or something . i'm not the youngest but I guess I look like I am . based from my height . face . and attitude . I gotta go . it's either i'm texting or i'm with the balikbayans .


--Godz`I-NicoLe-

ImNotAFlirt.TheOtherGuysAre.:|

traditional quote first from somewhere xD


I have to be freakin honest . there is one person I honestly like right now . I really don't know or care if he likes me back for real yet . couz i'm kinda conditioning myself right now . couz i'm really confused if he does like me . haha I know for a fact that i'm the type of person guys like to flirt with . I don't take a guy's flirting with me to heart . but I don't know why he gives me chills . he can actually make me fall for him if he takes it seriously . its been a long time since I haven't had an infatuation . I really don't know . I haven't known him for more than a month yet . who knows ? good luck with the other guys who flirt with me ~.~ Gambatte (:


--Godz`I-NicoLe-

MyComplex

hmm . lets make a list shall we ? (to be edited when i use a pc ~.~)


• Gadget Complex
• Net Complex
• School Complex
• Gaming Complex
• Time Complex
• Love Complex


well the gadget complex is quite simple to explain . my dearest ipad is broken . the repair costs 6k . a freaky thought came to my mind on the way here to mendez from the grocery store . i was thinking of selling or sending to the pawnshop my other mobile ~.~ its freaky @.@


as for the net complex . i jist freakin regret having a wifi of some sort . well . everyone is always fighting over the net . especially me . i always request that at least during wednesday and saturday nights i get the net's fastest speed . its already totally unfair we cant upgrade the net . now they cant even let me get what i want at least for my sanity ~.~


well the next one is quite odd . i never expected myself . to consider it as a complex . i've never had difficulties in my studies before . why now ? :( i mean c'mon . am i really that stupid now ? I feel like a complete idiot :( i've lost self confidence . even my pride as a Noceda is depleted :( i feel so ashamed of myself. like im not worthy for anything anymore . maybe i'm not me anymore :(


this complex is somekind of the return . its not really a problem . its just a complex . an addition to stress . but without it . i probably would die of sadness . socially i kinda feel better when there .


well this is where the gaming becomes a complex . the clash with studies . im not saying i cant handle them both . the problem is how do i sleep ? i have to be honest . i cant make one work without the other :|


can i explain this complex some other time ? ~.~


thats all for now i guess . till next time :)


-- Godz`I-NicoLe-

TheReturn

i hafta admit . im inconsistent . i used another blog . but i dont update that as well anymore . ill go back here i guess . anyways . ill make another blog post . i feel like i have a complex again ~.~ btw the return was postponed due to ran online . i admit it should have been earlier ~.~ last . currently at Mendez Cavite .


-- Godz`I-NicoLe-

TermBreak

yo . im currently at Mendez right now . I was kinda hoping I get to extend play time . well . i honestly went here couz there were a lot of people at home currently . both keshas and lassenga and a visitor . kuya enyok ? Im not sure . but basically . I felt suffocated so I just went here . and also . ate mikee was soooooo busy . she always gets irritated :| . you asking for the reasons why here ? I dont get shouted at . my efforts are noticed . I sleep a lot here and I get playmates here . but also bebejhonna is busy . and jaybee isnt on his sembreak anymore . the world is getting so condemning lonely . the only thing I can play right now is smurf T.T anyway i forgot to mention im here couz its our term break :)) haha rawr . anyways . i am currently nervous and stuffed with thoughts of the results . I came here to forget . but no one's here to make me forget actually :| im just making myself fat again :)) anyways I wanna say that ive been having chocolate cravings for weeks already . stress was overflowing me and I felt like cramming my body with chocolate after that . anyway I wanna say i'm feverishly depressed because of the fact i was one hour late on the day of the finals . I feel like dying last monday :| I wanna die now . it was a food thing I was next to Jhek last monday and even when he was teasing me . I knew he was deeply concerned about me crying next to him . im still sad


worryingfrustratedloser

夢以上の研究

よ！そのしばらくして . its evil of me to not write to you . I really hate myself right now . i've been giving out efforts for college for nothing . but I did notice its not my best yet . I get the feeling I will fail in a few days . I really hate this . me not doing my best I mean . but anyway . yesterday . on my way to school . I had a vision . I guess . it was something I didn't realize I wanted for a while . my dreams as an engineer started to expand . haha . its a funny thing to say knowing i'm barely doing my best now . that's very complex of me again . but right now . there is nothing more on my mind but to do my best and want to finish this engineering course of mine . I know in myself . I never dreamed of this as a kid . I was way too introverted and uncaring of the world couz of the fact I created mine and shut off everything else out of it . I understood nothing . not do my best for anything for a long time . I wonder now . when was the last time I did my best anyway ? college entrance exam ? あほ I passed without real efforts . its not something to be proud of couz its not really a challenge . running ? maybe ? but I was never actually passionate about it . just a while ago . I saw kids who decided to play a race . and it kinda surprised me that kids would actually have fun and laugh a lot about it . I guess my childhood really sucked . I ran on events but it was meaningless for me . I guess running isn't something that would make my heart burst of happiness . even learning a foreign language . I only do so when I want to . but now . I think I have a purpose for wanting to pursue and learn the language I want to learn right now . right now . I want to do my best and be an engineer . and also learn Japanese . why ? I realized a few days ago . and came to a vision yesterday . I remember the fact that Japan is really the best in engineering . and it amazed me a few days ago . I want to learn from them . I realize now why I want to be an engineer . to craft beautiful things that would make me happy . haha . what I just said made me laugh . haha was it really me who typed that ? funny . I still feel like its only dreams again . but inside of me . its telling me to work hard now . but why now ? is my mind stupid ? 17 years of my passive and bored personality . I wonder what others think of me ? 女の子 あほmost probably . I think of myself like that anyways . I guess others would think of me that as well . haha . だいじょぶ みんな . i'm not out of my mind just yet . I think I just found a dream inside of me . would it bring me happiness . or would it only be a waste of time again ? I wanna graduate already just to find out if these dreams would do to me in the future . anyways . having all these dream is causing me a headache . anyways . good night

ParentTalk

I have to admit . talking to your parents and grandparent with nothing to hide . is one of the best . sharing them your experience . but I didn't get to tell everything . couz he needed to go back to work I guess ? but I really always feel better when talking to them to be honest . now I feel a lot more happy I guess ? (: especially now that I can talk to lola :D I have to admit . when I was younger well even now . she is one who I respect of highly . its kinda one of the best feeling actually . to have a casual conversation with lola i mean (: anyways . I kinda felt bad that I had the conversation that involves money again -__- I just really feel worse about my book . and I really need it . I also told them about Michaella wanting to be a Mapúan as well as a MAS student . it was my influence anyway so I was the one responsible in telling them . based on Michaella's wishes . It would kinda be better to have my sister on my school again . I miss seeing a sister at school :)) its been 4 years ? I'm always alone in a new school ._. anyways . to be honest I want more conversations with them . I just cant find the time . or I don't know what to share . most of the time we only talk about my sister . but to be honest they have more conversations with Madison more than me . I kinda always get tired when I get home so I don't talk much here . asdfghjkl; . what am i saying ? I really don't talk much -___- anyways . I miss all of them there . I wish I can talk to them more and talk more . maybe even about problems . I normally don't talk about problems to people here at home . couz maybe i'm not comfortable . only Michaella . i've got no other outlets :( 

IHateCellphones.

I have to admit . I am like that . I don't freakin care if I don't have one . I currently don't have one with me . haha so others have problems contacting me when im at school . I have the net with me when im at school . but most of them can't connect at the net at school . but I have no problems connecting . I enjoy only having my iTouch with me when i'm at school . I also realized I might also be annoying others who need to contact me really badly :)) well I kinda like this now . at least now . I don't need to talk to people I don't really want to waste my time with . and besides . I hate hurting my thumb with texting too much :)) anyways . I also want to share . I kinda miss DLA because of the freedom I have there :)) I can bite my nails with freedom . and now ? I cant too much -__- its kinda annoying having strangers around . at DLA I can do that couz people know me and wont have problems with it couz i'm not the only one doing it . why don't I try dressing up like L sometime ? xDD haha . I miss my old seatmate Paolo . he was kinda L in a lot of ways . a genius . but also nail bites . I miss DLA -__- my next post will be about DLA again (; wait for it m'kay ? :D

YouDontCareEvenIfIStillBiteMyNails.m'kay?

guys

guys are annoying . its weird to get surrounded by them a lot . some guys tease me . some guys make me want them . some guys . force me to like them . evil world . anyways . I just cut off all communications toward me . turned of facebook and  just signed out of ym . all I have again are just reading old mangas again . anyways I hate this . I want to really have a math book now . its really irritating me . it makes me cry . I hate wasting time like this without doing anything anyways . I have to find someone who can state the questions for me -__- ill blog next time . I seriously feel like crying .

Agoraphobia

I am currently on my third week as a college student . it sucks couz I feel mistreated . I am trying my best to be a good student . the only thing is I don't freakin have a book . up to now I still don't have a book ? wtf ? I don't see any light in my future again . I pity myself . how wonderful . damn . i'm using too many oxymoron on my statements . you know what irritates me right now ? its hateful people are confessing their feelings without even knowing the feelings of the person they are confessing to . so what ? they get to say what they want and get away with it ? what happens to me now ? what ever happened to asking my feelings ? asdfghjkl; chill nicole ._. . . . . . . . anyways . tomorrow . we could finally meet our ECE1OO professor . its annoying to waste 2 meetings with a non sense professor who in reality isn't related to us . just filling in is the best term . I hate wasting my time . waiting . well speaking of waiting . Jhek Castolome finally broke the record of testing my patience . both waiting and my agoraphobic tendencies . I wanted to vomit again . its so stupid of me actually to wait in front of the book store . but I forgot the fact that it was the time where most students would probably be dismissed . as time flew my mind was going on its own hiatus without my consent . even faces of who was important was fading . damn i hate being agoraphobic . I was only waiting for 4O minutes I guess . but it felt like hell waiting for someone . was it worth it to wait for him just to not be lonely on the way home ? maybe ? I convince myself almost every time that the person who just walked past the corridor is someone I know but doesn't notice me . its weird . and shameful of me . I was about to lose my sanity . but I felt relieved that he approached me . to be honest . I almost forgot of his face while sitting there for 4O minutes . I couldn't bring out my tears when he came . I just pretended to have colds . why was I so happy to see him when he let me wait in hell ? I wanted to let him suffer . but I need to do that some other time . I feel sick again . this time colds ? i'm over coughs now . maybe next week . allergies ? haha dunno . im singing come what may again :))

IDon'tReallyLikeBeingTeasedToSomeoneWhoIsn'tVeryHonestOfHisIntentions

MyNewBestFriend #Stress

its been only 2 weeks but I feel like its been 2 months . I normally don't complain . but this time . stress is here . up to now . I am still freakin not used to it . this kind of stress is also quite different of the past . this time also have to face my fear everyday . Agoraphobia . Its not something to be proud of . I feel like vomiting at school sometimes . but I try my best not to . It would lessen my fear if we had uniforms or something . but that place is like for the mass . people wear different colors with different streaks of styles . all those colors are so vivid and wild that everyday I feel like I am going to be part of the commotion . I hate that . it makes me sick everyday . people there are also noisy and rude . argh gotta stop this drama . anyway . I decided to change something concerning my lifestyle . Since I travel for 2 hours from school to here . I always get here in an awfully tired state . I decided to do all things concerning school . at school alone . like homeworks . unfinished seatworks and the likes of hateful stuff at home . I think resting time should do me good here . and besides . I only want to read at home now a days . it makes me feel better after a long travel and hard day to go through everyday . after TThS days . I need hibernation . I need rest . its really annoying to be at Manila anyways . esp SM Manila . it is also a depot of people . its more annoying to be there than to be at school . its not like people there wear different things . its more awful to be there anyways .  anyways I gotta go now I guess . I wanna prepare couz I wanna go see sis now . at least I wont receive hurtful words when I see her

ILikeDragonfliesBetterThanButterflies.

depressedmeagain

I feel betrayed this week . almost everyone is having their backs turned on me . Kathleen watched HP 7.2 without me . Wrenzo would watch HP7.2 on Sunday without me . Elmo removing the rel stat . I know i'm not supposed to care . but i'm committing procrastination because of it . I feel so depressed . i'm almost crying :( I just couldn't post it somewhere else :| i'm sorry blog :( I need to do something but I can't do it :( my heart hurts :( I feel betrayed :'(

Reason

I am terribly sorry for not being able to blog for the past days . I will now state my excuses again . number 1 is exhaustion . number 2 is the net got jammed last monday and returned only yesterday . so anyways . when I was about to blog last monday . the net got lost for the electrical reason i think . anyways . Monday was interesting . it was kinda our first time to be at SM Manila together . I meant me and the other guys . except Kim always goes home without us . and Mahr had to go home early . to be honest I really didn't want to enter SM Manila . I feel like cursing the place for being so near our school . its not like SMol anymore . at least I had to walk and ride before I actually get there . but Justin made me realize something earlier . SM Manila can now actually just be called as a canteen or something . he made me notice most of the stalls were only for food . anyways its easier to keep up with them laughing too much if we weren't crowded or something . college is now more interesting now that i have them . I mean Princess, Carlo, Justin, Kim, Mahr, Efh and Melai . I think I should do more for college . but the thing is . when I get home . almost all my energy is used up . its like . everything I do now is for school . its really annoying . all I can do now at home is read and do my assignments . I can't even concentrate on making them ._. anyways . I noticed almost all universities are now having mid terms . except us of course . I wish them luck and good fortune . They will do their best of course (: anyways . I want to say . I have been awful to someone lately . and it makes me feel worse that I don't want to be with him as well . I still can't manage to like his attitude towards me . I really hate the kind of attention he gives me . like what I always do . if I don't like something . I really wouldn't like it . especially with the me getting way to stressed a lot . anyways . I realized I don't want to be have anything to do with him anymore . I feel bad that I always keep hurting his feeling and getting him worked up for nothing . and also he gets too worried about me . well there basically isn't anything to get worried about but the part where i get stressed a lot . its not like stress is new or something . its just a whole different kind of stress . stress physically ? I've been stressed psychologically and mentally a lot before . but now ? I have traveling to bother me now . look at me now O.o I now bear pimples on my face :)) haha . anyways . i'll find a way . btw . I still don't have books and a binder :)) I am awfully poor :)) anyways I have to go . I need to prepare now . I have a class at 1 and I guess I'll be leaving at 1O ? or 1O.3O I guess . I just realized I haven't eaten anything yet :)) haha I hope to maintain my blog . I'm awfully sorry for not being able to blog T.T It is against my will

LoveYou (: ♥

LittleMissCardinal.(:

I haven't blogged for weeks . which is utterly sad I know . I'm sorry . but what happened those days were actually very happy I have to admit . I was here at Mendez last week since Wednesday til Sunday that week . I was only supposed to visit here last Tuesday to give bebeJhonna her new phone which is similar to mine . but we had a problem . the phone she has was broken . we tried to solve the dilemma as I stayed here last week . at first they suggested we try to fix it at SM Dasma . maybe people there could work it out for us . but then . dad called and said we should try to let "Samsung" fix it for us . we decided to go to MOA the following day . it was fun actually :D it was my first time to travel through Cavitex :D :)) I even took a picture of manong guard :) anyways . The week ended fast . which was depressing I guess . I suddenly didn't want to go to Mapúa couz I was having too much fun here . I went home with a sad heart . drama . First day was kinda horrendous . I kept feeling my Agoraphobic tendencies take over me . my heart was racing a lot . I really wanted to leave when I just came . but my wanting to see my ID kept me still :|| it was sooooo ._. eeeck . but I finally got to meet my friends :D we were kinda dull at first . but things worked out (: pe was dull couz we weren't allowed to use the gym because the varsity was practicing . we went to the library after it . which we do a lot now . and we get to know one another a bit . Tuesday was grievous . I woke up at 6 . but I got lucky I guess . its just me . (: Wednesday was the first day I went home late . couz I only had one subject and I really wanted to stay with them longer . yesterday ? was Awfully tiresome and Mapúan Idol day . I stayed at school like from 6 to 5.4O . and sometime after I had to meet tito . kuya Justin and bebeJhonna to give my phone to her (: and successfully . tita allowed me to come here :)) when we got here it was like 12 already . exhaustion took over and I fell asleep in an instant . anyways . I am here now again in search for books :)) but I guess . its a fail ? I dunno . I'm here at ate Karen's house . but I don't know if I can borrow her books ? . I hope I can (: books are expensive -_____-

PS

I just realized something again . I still have my exclamation point so . you judge on my random rants down there . if those said things are true . couz I can't say much because of my exclamation point . I seem unconsciously typing again . nevermind -____-

PSS: ImNotInTheMoodToPleaseEverybodyRightNow

PSSS: IWantThePainToGoAwayNow.:|

worldiscruel

I've been thinking a lot . of what I truly desire in life . everything seems to blur around me . and the future is still foggy . everything is still uncertain . so I just focused on things I noticed about myself since the start of the year . well to start . I did notice some bodily changes . I never used to sweat . one reason why leaving the house without a handkerchief was never a bother . but now . I seriously need to pack an extra shirt . I noticed that last Palaro . when I had to like go around the school a lot . its annoying to be a committee couz I was in the paper works committee . I like store 4 shirts for the fun of it on the first day of Palaro . I ended up using all of them for a day . so I wash all the clothes and the jersey itself . I kept wondering . why do I even have a jersey when im literally useless in sport combat ? Imma wimp . I hate oily stuff . even the slight grease on my face . maybe one reason why I hate pollution as well . don't worry . I love things as well you know . like . taking a bath after being plastered with dirt from the kesha's mouths . its a past time of theirs . which can be true or false . depending on their moods . 

/randomrants

I was thinking a lot again . awful lonely times . Just when classes are about to start . I suddenly didn't want them to start . but again it switched to wanting to go to school . /mixed feelings . Its still awkward . I am still clueless . i've been to a lot of different schools . I still remember the feeling of being alien . not knowing about anything i'd enter the following school year . St. Therese . Don Bosco . Woodridge . I went to schools having only one year to appreciate that school and leave . then came Harrell and to be honest . I loathed that school . even if it was the first real school I had for years . I vacated the school for 3 years . and when opportunity struck . I fled the school . I seriously love learning . but I hate the schools I enter . I even hated the school I entered for high school: Divine Light, for 3 years . I've only learned to appreciate them on my last year . I personally think school is cruel and awfully filled with people you don't want to be with . for some reason . I really wonder . how I managed to survive 12 years of my life . controlling all emotion from the world . not really caring about humans but earth itself . humans are selfish . taking whatever they see . wanting everything for themselves . fending on their hunger for power . I even hate myself for being such vicious creature . /faceslap I guess I need my mom's old talisman on me again . my mind is being possessed . I guess .

Ifeellikedyingagain ._. Idieandnoonecares .

die marga die . forever alone :/

Alone

something hit me like a meteor just now . I'm a freakin introvert thats why I just blog what I feel than express them personally . I feel like a backstabbing btch writing about the negativity of the world on my blog rather than really expressing them i look like the image a lot ._. I feel like a loser again . and its making me a lot depressed . maybe its swirling with my exclamation point . I don't want to care . I can't force anyone to be with me


IFeelLonely.

BlogOfAWimpyKid

So I feel awfully stupid staring at my pc while everyone else is doing something progressive (school) . A few days ago . i've had my emo days again . so I was internalizing and scanning myself again O.o Its awfully weird to do that esp with the computers we have are always open . so last sunday . I started reading a book I bought the same day . in order to stay away from my gadgets . I read my book downstairs . I did get my head off my gadgets . but I still was sleeping on almost morning couz basically . I still always feel like not letting go of a book unless i've finished it . its awfully weird . so I get to finish the book the next day because I did a lot of chores . its not like I have a housemaid or something . kesha hates me for not doing chores automatically . what does she expect ? I freakin wasn't used to that -_- anyways . I want to reread book 1 of Kane Chronicles: Red Pyramid . on my iTouch so . ill just blog again later . I srsly don't have a life ._. people go out and have fun while I stay here at home . rereading old books . I think my alien theory about myself is true . I srsly don't deserve *bleep* ._.

memorize``F' U' F U F R' F2 U F U F' U' F R

DeJaVu

as I may call it . I find myself . doing the same hobbies after 5 years . wasting my time . watching the same Anime . reading HP repeatedly as well with nothing more to read . me wanting and will do my best on learning the Japanese language again . I almost got courted by the same guy . but . I can't see myself with him anymore . I might want to live in the same timeline . but I can't seem to find myself wanting to be with him -_- . but there are things that would be different from this de javu . rather than me . entering T&C . its Madison going there now but its still of the same fact I graduated or something and will leave a school I only get to love on my final year . its almost always a bitter ending . another thing different is that . I don't have either of my parents when I leave this school . but the fact they forced me to schools I don't really know of . and am clueless of . I really don't know what lies ahead . maybe almost everything would happen again . accidents . laziness . stupidity . cramming . isn't there space for change ? I don't want to repeat every mistake I did in the past . its rude . and wrong of me . to want . but not do anything for change . and one more thing . I don't want to talk about change anymore . I keep saying it . -_- I am so redundant about that on posts -_- i'll try not to talk about it too much -_-

unli._.

Day 16 . A picture of someone who inspires you

Need more explaining ? there is no doubt . my idol . an image . my savior . who takes away the pain . my inspiration . the reason I want to pursue her dreams for me . my diary . who understands . my happiness . my mom ♥

Day 15 . A picture of something you want to do before you die

It's silly posting this :)) this is soooo medieval . but I don't care . haha . I have to admit . i'm really tired of living this predictable and boring life . after graduation . I want to experience adventure . and live life . to be freakin honest . I was supposed to post the Kissing in the rain with spiderman type of kiss only thing is . I want to be spiderman x)) haha . it seems silly and childish of me . but this is what randomly came to me when I saw what day it is today :)) I don't want those bungee jumping stuff . i've experienced more scary stuff than that already . tree drop is way cooler than that :)) maybe someday i'll do bungee jumping too . but I don't care . I want that underwater kiss of mine :))

Demons

its 12 . and im scared . I hate it at this time of night . I have this bodily needs that urges me to stand up and do them . I am obliged by my body to do them . I walk at our dark hall . I get this sick feeling someone is walking with me . sometimes when I drink I feel long fingernails tracing down my throat . I hate opening lights at night . I am more scared with lights turned on with the thought of my imagination would turn true . that all this fiction in my mind is true . its true there are spirits taunting this house as well . but I feel like demons are always at my back at night . I don't know what's causing this paranoia of mine . listening to illuminati and being arrogant about its message . or maybe the fire-faced demon at insidous and some other horror movie . I know I use my imagination a lot . to even this extent ? why is this even happening to me . I was never afraid of the dark . even filled thoughts when I lay around . what is really happening ? I'd better go to sleep and erase the image on my head . I don't want to admit it but I think

i'm afraid :(

Tips on how to act like a DLAnian

Less than a month from now I would start a new life at college . everything would change aside from some of the attitudes I obtained from my alma mater . from my POV . DLA is very different from the others . here are some of the factors that would help you as you stay at this institution .

★ Mingle with other students .
. 1O months din kayo magsasama sa 5 corners ng classroom nyo . this is what sets DLA apart . wala halos room na nagkaka pareho (: pwede mo ipagyabang ang . malalim na ceiling . may butas ang Aircon . Isang pintuan . may tiles at kung ano ano pa (:

★ Bring the assigned school supplies on the second day
. every year . 2nd week ako nagdadala ng school supplies kasi lagi ko nakakalimutan . or sadyang wala akong paki na kelangan na ng school supplies . yung iba nag ccheck na ng cartolinas . ako nakatunganga :))

★ Always bring a Vanity Kit
. isang tatak na DLAnian ka ay kung amoy canteen ka :)) buti na lang ginawan na ng paraan ng SG '1O President: Kristine Fabellon ng paraan (: meron ng available na air freshener ang DLA (: sana lang mapanatili ito sa susunod na mga henerasyon :D

★ Be ready for Palaro Conversations at the start of the year
. eto talaga hindi pwede mag bago . Kaka labas pa lang ng list ng students per section . Palaro kaagad ang pinaplano . bago pa nila makilala ang teachers . may line up na sila .

★ The chances of cutting are slim . so don't bother trying
. Good guy/girl ka na non ? haha talagang impossible lang mangyari yun dahil:

1.) Nasa T&C ka . pag labas mo . wala ka din naman pupunta .
2.) Hindi ka rin naman makaka labas kasi nandun si Cheap
3.) Mas lalong di ka makaka baba kasi lahat ng stairs may teacher's nook .
4.) Di ka pwede mag mingle .

so hopeless ang pangarap mong pag ccutting (: umupo ka na lang sa room mo at gumawa ka ng kung ano :))

★ Try to converse in english
. Dati nag ppromote ang ELA department ng English Speaking Campaign pero since last year(2010) . na stop na din yun dahil nag ppromote na ang Filipino Department ng Practice the Foreign Language *imbento ko lang yung sa filipino*

★ Always help in Group projects/presentations or Section presentations .
. Wag i-asa lahat sa Leader/President . wag hayaan na magalit sya bago ka kumilos . nakakasawa kaya sumigaw ng sumigaw tapos wala naman pumapansin . kung wala sya sa harap edi walang kikilos . ganun ?

★ Don't beat the deadline
. since uso ang procrastination . wag ka na makisabay kay katamaran . baka matalo mo pa si kamatayan sa sobrang kamamadali sa pag tapos ng mga kelangan gawin .

★ Do something productive when doing projects at a groupmate's house
. since madami kayo na pwede mag hatakan into laziness . bago kayo manood ng movies . kumain at kung ano ano sa bahay ng classmate mo . dapat at least 3/4 gawin nyo muna bago tumambay sa bahay nila (:

★ Always follow the dress code .
. basta may event sa school na kelangan mag civilian . wag kalimutan ang dress code . nakakahiya naman kung papagalitan ka ng Level Leader mo or kahit ng subject head O.o

★ Always greet the teachers .
. yan ang tunay na ugali ng DLAnian . may babae sa college akala chinese ako kasi nag bow ako sa kanya nung nag pasalamat ako . akalain mo yun ?

★ As early as December DLAnians need to prepare a Jersey for Palaro .
. excited ka nga sa Palaro . wala ka naman jersey ? mag contribute ka para magawa ang memorable Jersey mo (: Madalas napagtatalunan din yan . kaya ingat (:

★ Learn to appreciate your section .
. baka naman sa farewell or maybe even sa college mo pa sila ma appreciate . sayang naman ang time na galit na galit ka sa kanila pero enjoy naman nila ang year na kasama ka .

Trip to memory lane I guess ? It makes me remember the foolish things I did during High school . Try not to commit too much faux pas (: you'll never know ;)

Day 13 . A picture of your favorite band or artist

No Snide comments . I love her . Her name's Natasha Bedingfield . and she's like an unwritten angel who has a pocketful of sunshine who would say it again for you :D . ok where did I get that randomness ? O.o anyway . she's not very famous like Lady Gaga or Justin Beiber or all those other artist that easily catch the media's attention . She has a very cool voice in which I have also learned to imitate at times . but those are just the quiet times I have alone . Who knows ? She actually just released a new album entitled Strip Me . What is it about her that sets her apart from other singers ? Her songs are actually very inspirational I guess . I've learned a bit of the self actualization i've been wanting to really achieve . its still kind of a very difficult task for me due to more insecurities and fears and unwanted wants . i've learned that dreaming is fine . as long as you know you would someday fulfill those wanted dreams . dreams would someday be fulfilled if you do it (: Nobody's perfect . but you have to work for it

`KookaiiMonsterNiElmoMakulit.>:P

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here we go again with the don't do unto others saying . haha . just got deleted . what hurts is that its a group . haha . i'm fine with it . they are just another set of strangers . I don't want to care anyways . all I care for now is the fact that almost everyone in this house will seriously have classes starting tomorrow . and I . seriously sucking will stay here at home with 2 Keshas . I seriously need to leave this house from time to time . they hate me and i'm not a martyr to not to at least get annoyed of them . I need to make a prayer @.@

Dear God,
Please help me . That I may not speak foul languages upon them
That I may be guided upon your will .
Let me not affect others this venom on my lips.
Amen

Day 12 . A picture of something you love

So since I am a freakin spoiled brat I have to admit I am also a very material girl . well . I have to be honest that my father likes being close fisted and saving money for us and to be very honest i've become very materialistic since he started wanting those kinds of objects . I am very materialistic but I am also a dumb girl . I don't always take good care of those gifts and objects given to me . I'm stupid I know . but I am asdfghjkl; spoiled *period* anyways . papa is spoiling me again . showing me new gadgets he's sure i'll drool about . and obviously I fell for his tactics and I instantly fell for those technological objects . I have to accept the fact I am part of the techno-freak generation . anyway I was raised with my fingers down on a keyboard . but some people don't appreciate this . like the people who I live with . they think its a waste of time and effort . and again comes the topic about chores and me understanding no more than blah blahs . I have to admit being a techno girl has its benefits . i've conversed with other natives of foreign lands and learned some words from alien languages . I've peeked and learned to appreciate places I could never visit . I've obtained information I think some books would not have other than magazines and Reader's Digest . I never limit myself with the boring social sites . and never ending games . I actually kill boredom with weird facts in which I share and keep in mind . thats why at times I get to be labeled as "Google" . I know in myself I still have lots to learn . Its a long path to take . its a good thing I have God and my gadgets to help me (:

``KookaiiMonsterNiElmoMakulit.>:P

Day 11 . A picture of something you hate

I exceptionally hate people who shout a lot . I find it really irrelevant and annoying to shout a lot . I'd rather converse with people and talk nonsense than shout at people and order them around . I really hate fighting . there's always the bloodshed and traumatic topic . even wounds open up . you destroy good relations . you become twisted and become hungry for power and hatred consumes you . you want nothing more but to destroy the other party . it is the sad truth . that is why I try my best to not be involved in such . I hate those times of strife and unsaid thoughts . wordless times together . and wasted time . I guess time wont always heal every wound . It would just make you forget . I don't want to cause anyone those kind of pain and thoughtless mistreating against my surroundings . I don't to be careless and insensitive . war would never work for me . I wouldn't want to affiliate myself in events that wouldn't justify anyone's happiness . damn this post is so melodramatic O.o better stop this :x :))

`KookaiiMonsterNiElmoMakulit.>:P

ThunderLightning

nothing in the world will ever replace my weirdly love for rain . its still solemn . every dirty thing in the world washes away with it . or floods you with emotions due to clogging . well whatever . just looking and listening to it makes me smile already . like nothing would matter again . all my problems and my heartache are washing away with it . even lightning can't scare me . man . kid thought again . I just suddenly missed playing in the rain . even my fantasies . everything under the rain . my make up stories . my ever misadventures . I don't care how much tears are flowing away from me . I feel a lot better now . at least i've removed those woes and pain away from me . feel the rain on your skin (: . and i know . i'm where I belong (: ♥

PS: While I was doing this blog I was staring through my window almost throughout the blog post.

Day 10 . A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with

crazy stuff . new stuff . weird stuff . you name it . we can do almost all of it now together . except eating some stuff she wouldn't like on her system . she is . i guess . the only person in the world who would allow me to get my freak on . I remember the two of us being in unexpected places like SLEX(T&C) and eating unexpected food . unexpected and illegal galas we had when one of us gets bored . We like to walk around T&c . we almost always agree on topics we talk about during our chats together . but I really like it best when I have someone to agree with when I tease her . like when she introduced me to Mr Mapuan who was actually nice . but just didn't have time for her . I kinda feel bad I would be like him . I am afraid already actually . I want to provide time for her so she couldn't be prejudiced about Mapuans I guess . I hope she really isn't close minded about us :( I just hope I will still have time for her like I always used to have . and do everything with her . I really hope they get back together . they really look good together . well he is the only person I knew who would actually make her stop having lots of guys O.o couz she is the first girlfriend ever . how I wish really O.o maybe someday . another guy or hopefully him again would come her way and make her be like that again .

IodizedSalt

Day 9 . A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most

♥. Michaella Marco .♥. Anne Wrenzo .♥. Harley Camille Psalm .♥. Arjone Kathleen .♥. Aerold .♥. Vida .♥. Elmo .♥

they are the reasons why I smile . why I prevent myself from doing evil stuff to thine . they listened to every stupid story I provide them with . and they know I care a lot for them . and they put up with my shitty things .

★ MichaellaNicoleManicdao.MarcoGabrielHernandez
I call them ate and kuya even though I am biologically older than they are . its just cute I guess ? they do look older than I will ever be ~.~ and I guess . with them around the house . I don't feel too lonely sometimes . and they are almost always ready to listen to my petty stories no matter how stupid I look at times . and they both know my weirdness inside out ._.

★ AnneMargaretBitorAlmeda.WrenzoJaminBronUbaldo
My online/offline brother and sister (: I might not spend too much time with them now . but I still hold on to them dearly . they are the only siblings I don't dare fight with . I don't get angry with them around . its like . there is no such words as problems when I have them around . I can't imagine life if I never knew them . ♥

★ HarleyJaneLayug.CamilleBuenconsejo.PsalmEuniceDispo
My companions at the best year I had as a high school student . I also realized all of them were my first and last time classmates at DLA . I may have weirded them out a lot of times but still . they say when I am being a pain to them . and that's what I like about them . they say whats wrong with me so they are clear with what they want . im sorry for being a pain last year . It wouldn't be the same not knowing you guys :D

★ ArjoneMarieSamsiscoCruz.KathleenAnneMercedSanchezTaping
the undeniable best friends of mine . they know almost everything about me . even though at times we tend to repeat ourselves too much due to information flowing . they both are very over protective of me at times and I do feel a lot of times I am babied around or something . they always take note of my clumsiness on top of everything like me always on the safe side when we walk almost anywhere we go . and me not being sporty . they get that a lot . but still even with both of them treating me like a baby :)) I still bully them around when I get a chance >:))

★ AeroldJamesSarmiento
My very smart besprend :D very down to earth and very loving . he never fails to be very conscious of his surroundings . though some people found him weird . he still doesnt let others opinions let him down . even though it has been my habit of pretending to be mad at him to catch his attention . he still is a really busy person . and I respect that . its just kinda funny when I see him worried im mad at him . I wish him all the luck at Ateneo though he is very scared . I am still very proud of him and I know he will someday be one of the most successful persons I will have met (:

★ VidaAngelaPagala.
My dearest (: Even if she still reminds me of the past some times . I still love her same (: I never fail to smile when having a conversation with her . I become honest with what I feel . I don't know why but . I feel very protective of her ♥

★ JohnElmoRona.
The guy who makes me feel like a kid and a princess *feeler* at the same time . I laugh hard . I do crazy stuff . He doesn't let me go to sleep with woes against him . he lets me myself and I feel comfortable . I don't like acting anymore . so I express almost everything I want to say .

♥♥

Day 8 . A picture that makes you laugh

actually this post is for a lot of pictures . click on the pictures to open the album . I really still laugh at theses photos . even those mediocre days you get to spend a day with boredom . you can still find good days to take time to capture and have a good laugh at . oh I just realized all the photos were taken by macbook goddess . maybe if macbook goddess has a battery again . maybe i'd have more pictures to laugh at other random sad days . just a something to make me feel better . I hope others still have time as well to look back at pictures and reminisce the good times and happy memories of before (:

Day 7 . A picture of your most treasured items

ok this may look weird but these objects really are my most treasured items . My Physics and Chemistry high school notebooks . 3 Necklaces . and supposedly my watch that is now with Jerome Sutacio ._. I miss my watch ._. anyways . what sets these object apart from the rest of my stuff ? well lets see . the 2 notebooks are evidences of my hard work during high school . I constantly kept writing notes during discussions and I did my best to keep track and understand each lesson . I also did my best to keep my hand writing legible on these notes . even if I did kinda hate the teachers of the said subjects so maybe that's why I treasure these items ._. but I didn't obtain the next 3 objects in the same manner . gifts from Kathleen . Wrenzo and Elmo . I remember clearly how I received each gift . The key pendant from Kathleen . she gave it to me during last Christmas 2OO9 at the Party at school . she gave away gifts I guess . but I just felt it was special . Madison's so called light pendant with my name inside it from Wrenzo . he gave it during one of the days of our practices . I instantly melted when I saw it . it was a leaving gift I guess ? couz he also gave one to Tim Ortal . He actually wants to go to Mapúa maybe because of us . he is very comfortable in sharing anything to either the 2 of us . and due to his hate for his own batch . he sticks with us . but now we're gone . he is definitely sad about it . he is one of the few reasons to keep coming back to DLA (: I wish we'd be together tomorrow (: finally the dog tag from Elmo . he gave it when I first met him . I actually felt crazy and stupid when I presented myself to him . I find myself unattractive but he dismissed such thought . haha my thoughts are gay again . I miss them . a lot :(

Day 6 . A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day

Ok this day is hard . haha . I have lots of choices and its driving me insane :)) anyways . I considered a lot of persons . Emma Watson . Bonnie Wright . Cameron Diaz . Angelina ? O.o . but despite all those gorgeous women running through my head when I first read of this day . I just chose Rapunzel (: its not because she's my favorite Disney character . well from the first place she really wasn't my favorite when I was a kid O.o well here are the reasons why I think I'd like to be Rapunzel for a day

★ She is independent
. she lives in a tower alone almost all of the time
★ She knows and does all household chores
. quoted from my mom already . I don't know much about it couz she spoiled me regarding such
★ She has long beautiful hair
. well duh -_- that's what she's famous for -_-
★ She doesn't let anyone over power her . even ruffians and thugs (:
. mez a loser ._.
★ She has a chameleon best friend
. just a frog would be fine ._.
★ She has magic hair that glows when she sings
. /point taken I can sing . but my hair flies away ._.
★ She doesn't break promises
. the thing is . I don't make ones . I don't want to let someone wait for something that I feel I would someday disappoint him/her . its the ugliest feeling I know . I just always do my best to do whatever they want me to do . sometimes I feel like promises are lies . Its a hurtful thought to bear

I'm weird again . but being John Elmo Rona's sexy phone for a day would be the best :)) wahahaha . kidd :)) all that attention :)) that'd be so cool :))

S3653CorbyWiFi.:))))))

Day 5 . A picture of your favorite memory

my first and last retreat ever as a high school student . well I didn't have the opportunity of having a retreat when I was in grade school . i've learned a lot and had fun as well during my stay there . but I still couldn't stop myself from crying when I was there . I really suck at stopping myself sometimes ~.~ well anyway . lets start from the beginning . since I just saw last night the list of students in each section this year . I have to say the way the sections are formed . i totally sucks . anyway . I remember not wanting to be at Pascal at first . I wanted to be at Thomson . knowing both Kathleen and Arjone are there . and nothing else would matter . but I didn't push myself anymore . I don't want to change that anymore . so I just let Pascal sink in . I remember being late for the first day . I got there like 9 already . Kesha didn't wake me up . she stupidly forgot about the fact it was my first day on my last year as high school student . she stupidly didn't realize I wanted to end it before it even started . but I guess my hate for expectations and plans worked up . I learned a lot from them . I learned how to be myself and let myself grow . I became more expressive . not only through this blog . but through words . I also learned that people can accept me for who I really am . I guess I have been afraid of expressing myself due also to my fear of discrimination and false stories about me in which I have encountered few years before so . I wasn't afraid of it really . it just realized that if they hate me for that . then I won't show them anything to make them feel like that . I guess I treasure my senior year most because they make me feel more comfortable of myself . even if some of them got irritated at my old laugh . they'd even laugh at me . they made me happy on my birthday . I never felt so special on my birthday ever . it wasn't really because of me . it was because of the Filipino day :)) boooo feeler :)) I experienced rejoicing due to winning a single game in a division . even if its THAT game only that you didn't get to be 4th place in . the tears and laughter at the retreat . the secrets revealed . the trust you hold on to . The excitement of being free for the first time . they thought me how to really have fun . and be out with them . ate and liked congee for the first time . they removed almost fears . shared controversies . we even open more space for a new brother at the almost end of the year . a person from the other section couldn't handle the situation they had at his section . he was more comfortable with himself . but I know in myself . Pascal isn't really perfect . we still experience problems . some being closefisted . sometimes they even hated one another because of either the way they behave or just plain financial problems . we thought we were falling apart at the almost end of the year . like our new brother's section . was it really ? almost all the sections was in peril . everyone is in pain . not wanting to let go of one another . most dramatic scene i've ever encountered during high school O.o I mean it O.o I keep seeing people crying during completion and clearance week O.o I thought someone died or something :)) even now people are still dramatic . I just went to sir Erbert's wall . I was really sad for him . him having a new set of kids . not really wanting them . and he still holds on to his Galibogs . I just realized . its not only the Retreat thats my favorite memory . its my whole senior year :D ♥

Pascal.(: ♥

FirstTime.:D

asdfghjkl; ! omg ! :)) achievement ! :)) this is the first time ever I get to finish minesweeper intermediate :)) haha I suck at intermediate and expert level :)) but my fastest time at the beginner is only 8 seconds -_- I can't freakin beat that anymore -_- anyway its also my first time to even try to download a movie . I freakin hate waiting for long downloads like this . I almost always download overnight . so maybe tonight i'll download again another movie . but i'm not sure what . but the movie I am currently downloading is 3 idiots . well basically I am very curious of the it because most Mapúan recommend engineering like moi to watch it . all I know is its a story about 3 engineering students themselves and promised to someday meet again as successful men . i'm not sure . i'll blog about it after I watch it . I actually feel like i'm an idiot myself . heck ! I am one . I wonder what the story is .

1OOMBToGo.:D

Day 4 . A picture of your favorite night

haha rawr . this has a special gif :)) . this really isn't about the prom but the sleepover after it . It was my first time ever to have that kind of experience . I've shared a lot . ate a lot . even watched a lot . I was freakin lazy in someone else's house tsk tsk me . I've also learned that some people actually close their wifis . still can't bear the fact that this house is online almost 24/7 . they are far from civilization yet they have a ministop . its weird couz . I'm in a freakin subdivision inside a freakin subdivision with lots more subdivisions . so the ministop is not in this subdivision . meaning its freakin far away based on walking distance . freakin ministop . I just realized . not all the posts in my old blog are evil and lurking . Am I even allowed to even tempt myself into opening it ? I hope so . Can someone please answer me ? :| I suddenly want to transfer here at least the good ones . but I could be tempted to see the evil lurking ones . why am i even torn in two ? O.o maybe someday . when I am truly ready . but come to think of it . why am I even limiting myself ? I'm not afraid of the past right ? why should I ? why do I even have 2 blogs ? I stopped using tumblr to focus on one blog . so why do I even bother having 2 blogs ? O.o I wonder if my blog is still popular or not O.o I remember having chinese commenting on my post before the hijacking at the Quirino Grandstand . that really annoyed me couz I've lost a lot of viewers ~.~ haha I am self centered concerning viewers >:) anyways . this is getting melodramatic . haha . I'll just ask some other people later :D

AuRevoir.(:

Day 3 . A picture of the cast from your favorite show

Well to be honest I don't really like watching tv shows and all those dramatic stuff . but this is the last tv show that caught my attention . its not necessarily my favorite . but it can pass . The story is kinda weird actually . your best friend stealing your husband from you . almost killing you . really killed your unborn children . and the fact that your husband's mistress just gave birth to their child . pretending to be someone who died the same day . having the mother of the person who's name you're using . you and your new mother plot a huge revenge . fall in love with your false brother . deceive your ex-husband . have him fall in love with you again . get all his riches . leave him with nothing but his wife and his big mouthed mother . avenged your so called mother to be with your real mother . only to find out the person who's name you're using is alive and did not die like you did . and to learn that she too loves the person you love . and she has some psychological disorder which destroys the wedding of you and the person you love . her destroying the relationship between you and her mother . forcing her mother to let her brother marry her in which she will also regret . you winning a contest against your husband's mistress . her mistress knowing she has cancer . you pitying your old best friend rather than loathing her . having to want to help her than kill her . knowing your ex husband is in prison due to the crime committed by his mistress in order to save her . your ex husband escaping prison to be with his mistress and his son for the last time . and both of them dying and leaving their child under your custody . tragic really . but I seriously didn't watch the last episode . i'm actually finding a way to watch the last episode :| but with this internet . i'm hopeless . i'll try next week I guess ? I hope the net is better by then :D but for now . i'll be crying in front of the laptop whining about the speed of the net .

TemptationOfWife.(:

Day 2 . A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

This is a picture of me and my younger sister . the sister who . I've fought with . argued with . cried with . told stories to . and basically been with almost all of my life . some people mistake me for being the younger sibling . but I am biologically older than her . but come to think of it she is very much more psychologically mature than me . but I am mentally more mature . but again she physically out weighs me . I've had more memories with her than any other person in the world I guess ? we are open with what we feel outside our surroundings . we observe almost everything together . I also like giving gifts sometimes to both my sisters when going out of the house like leaving for somewhere far O.o I still feel awkward being the eldest . I don't feel like one sometimes due to the authority in her voice . she almost always gets what she wants :)) i'm a good follower o:) I can't see myself without my sisters now . they are my happiness .

bliss

this is so weird . for the first time in months . rain didn't comfort me while I'm crying . its just there at the background . as if it was an insignificant part of my life . it actually enhances the pain I am currently feeling . why in the world am I like this now ? :| I am slowly drifting into the darkness once more . this is the complete opposite of the blog in my drafts :| I'll let the darkness consume me tonight . I'll be ok .

Tonight

PS . mobile blog . to be edited

Day 1 . A picture of yourself with 10 facts

actually midnight 1 . its weird I just waited for the next 12 am .

★ My eyes aren't equal or something . its almost as if my eyes are always swollen due to crying

★ I have the weirdest smile in the world . maybe because of the fake smile and crooked and yellow teeth I wear ._.

★ I still adore cartoons *period*

★ My age would the last thing you'll believe in if you first meet me . I really don't look and act like my age . maybe I am a grade school graduate high school ._.

★ I have different laugh variations . depends on my mood . I remember annoying people with my laugh during my senior year . now my laugh is back to sounding very childish again .

★ I care for some people who actually hate me . I still remember being stabbed at the back at times .

★ I used to like lose a lot of phones . more than 1O now I guess ? I've lost count . thats why I don't ask for expensive phones now

★ I grew tired of editing pictures . so almost every picture I have are what they really are . except those pictures that combines pictures together or something . most of the time its my sister who does that now .

★ I used to not like tying my hair . it used to always be on my face so I used to have short hair because of the fights I had with my mom about making it short because my hair looks hideous . now . my hair is almost always in a bun .

★ My mom told me I looked so adorable when I was younger . my face all round . she told me it could be a reason for me to want to be getting heavier again . but now . when I look at myself . it looks square ._.

SpiderMonkey.(:

tumblrboredom?

here I go again with tumblr . tsk tsk . im bored actually . but ill just borrow some things from tumblr :)) its actually from my vida dearest . ill try the picture challenge she was doing . she actually edited pictures just for this challenge :)) just a something to work with before the start of classes and all the stress I am already expecting . I can feel the stress radiating already O.o haha

1. A picture of yourself with 10 facts
2. A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
3. A picture of the cast from your favorite show
4. A picture of your favorite night
5. A picture of your favorite memory
6. A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day
7. A picture of your most treasured item
8. A picture that makes you laugh
9. A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
10. A picture of the person you do the most ****** up things with
11. A picture of something you hate
12. A picture of something you love
13. A picture of your favorite band or artist
14. A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
15. A picture of something you want to do before you die
16. A picture of someone who inspires you
17. A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
18. A picture of your biggest insecurity
19. A picture and a letter
20. A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel
21. A picture of something you wish you could forget
22. A picture of something you wish you were better at
23. A picture of your favorite book
24. A picture of something you wish you could change
25. A picture of your favorite day
26. A picture of something that means a lot to you
27. A picture of yourself and a family member
28. A picture of something you’re afraid of
29. A picture that can always make you smile
30. A picture of someone you miss

btw . I posted the first picture couz I kinda remember myself :)) and picture 2 ? . just caught my attention :)) and picture 3 is ♥♥♥ (: 4 & 5 & 6 ? I just use them a lot

distressedlove.(:

Minnesota.RioDeJanerio

this sucks . I have 4 drafts on this blog . I hate drafts . but i've been . I don't know . busy I guess ? man I still hate that reason . being busy is not a reason for not blogging :| so anyways . one reason why is MathPlus I guess ? man this isn't a reason :| I have 2(?) blog posts with stories about my classmates at MathPlus . anyway effort took its toll and i luckily passed the frigid thing . weird actually . I was being pessimistic earlier and killing myself with the thought . "You are gonna fail . You are gonna fail . you are gonna fail" well . i wasn't expecting anything . but still I opened the site with the list of passing students in MathPlus . CTRL+F   /fingerscrossed

i'm not boasting around . I just feel very fulfilled or something its a really happy thought . especially with domo patapon and Rapunzel on my background again . Infinite smiles from me again . not joking around with fake ones . anyways . I've been on infinite smiles since Elmo came along . but I do still feel like a maniac when i'm with him :)) my mind makes me do random stuff and I actually humiliate myself in front of him O.o what am I really doing ? i'm guessing . I'm showing him everything ? O.o my attitude ? but I still don't know everything about myself . I remember the dull moment I had thinking a way of describing myself during the interview I had today . it was kinda annoying to think of what to say . or how in the world do I even describe myself ? random words . random funny stories as well . the counselor was laughing at me when I was describing myself . I forgot what I said already O.o the only thing I remember was with the family and the future plans question and answer portion . anyway . I was weirding myself out again with the medical and dental stuff as well . I don't know if i'll do what they say with the glasses and the pasta thing couz I kinda don't want those things anymore ~.~ I will constantly keep losing eyeglasses again . uhm if ever the braces thing . anyway I won't remove it like frenkles or retainers but I still would have impaired voice due to obstruction of the object present on my mouth . it would be the remedy on the said problems . but I would be different again . plus on imperfections . plus on lower self esteem . and plus on pessimistic attitude . haha . whatever people say when they try to praise me . still feels like it isn't true . awkward . need to change ? tsk tsk . still have a lot to learn about myself :| btw my sisters and I have been watching Rio for like . infinite times . well I want to share . the DVD could be broken by now O.o haha poor DVD :)) I pity the object for being one of Madison's favorites :)) I still believe in her weird tendency to have obsessive wants on movies . and Tangled in between :D still love Tangled :D . I'm freakin tired and sleepy :|

BlogPostsHaveAlreadyFloodedMyBlog.:|

PS: I'll try to post my drafts tomorrow . except the wrath blog post . I'll die of karma . 

MagicCanHappenInRio.(:

iLoveYouMoreSistarr (:

ok this blog post replying thing is kinda awesome sis :)) haha anyway sis . im still happy to be the person who you can still depend on despite the family issues you have in life . I can't say I replaced them couz thats too much I guess . I know you'd hate this coming from me but here goes . "they are still your family" . haha I kinda know you loathe this line by now but my conscience is eating me knowing i'm the only person in the world to make you feel that you are appreciated and all that stuff . I know that they lack a whole lot of stuff . like appreciation love and all those stuff . well whatever happens i'm still glad i'm the person who can fill up those things they lack but I can't say i'm a replacement . anyway I have to admit you're correct at the rant things . I kinda am always worried about that issue . I kinda told Wrenzo about that last saturday . sorii sis .  the fact that just opening up an opinion online has very different impacts on different people . life is unfair I know . at least you still have me sis (:

Lovin

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just browsed tumblr O.o

haha im just sharing . this is simply adorable :D I dont all the way loathe tumblr . couz maybe because bebii still uses it . I sometimes read her posts . it really feels great that she posts love things on her tumblr (: im just really happy she's happy (: and the post itself is kinda really cute . so anyway . sharing post . just out of boredom again .

Reasons.~.~

Reasons why I chose Mapúa Intramuros over Makati

★ Less travel time stress
★ My cousin is a Lycean
★ I asked my sister to choose between Asian Institute of Management and Lyceum of the Philippines University so we could go to school together . and she chose Lyceum
★ I suddenly didn't want to pursue Computer Science
★ All my classmates were going to be at Intra
★ Sudden change of dreams
★ All Engineering programs are there
★ Just following the path of sudden decisions

Reasons why I regretted choosing it

★ I realized I have a nearer place to stay when at Makati (Mandaluyong)
★ I know the place better couz I used to live there as well
★ Less scary environment .
★ Elmo is there :|

I suddenly had a realization . no one block the way :))

DearDearestSistarr

Sorry for making you pretend . I didn't realize I actually forced you into to hiding your anger . I know blogger is our outlet and all . sorry sis :( you were kinda forced into making positive only blogs . i'm not restricting you silly . its still your blog . your life . m'kay sis ? Love you so much sis . miss you more . I really feel sad . you are so mistreated sis . your a very nice kid and you deserve better . i'm still here m'kay ? Love you . Love you . Love you . never be afraid to express what is inside of you .

ForeverSistarrs.♥

SleepyHead.:))

the other day was bebejhonna's debut (: it was very special for her (: i'm really happy for her (: so anyway we did a lot to prepare for her birthday . I remember we went to fetch her cake at SM Dasma . en route home we were telling old stories . I suddenly remembered my glass house :)) I told them I was still sad that the land was on sale . I asked them . where in the world will my glass house be then ? who would've thought they'd actually make fun of my bangag moment ? :)) they said . they give it to me as a gift . it'll be planted . on a pot . :)) how dare they :)) haha they'd contribute on making it :)) one is in charge of 15 glasses :)) the other was in charge of the ground =)) haha I miss them again and everyday . well the party was a huge success :D a lot of people came :D it was really unexpected that . that kind of number of guests would come (: even bebejhonna cried due to happiness :D i was really happy for her :D I also got to meet Nash and seen personally who Vic is . haha . I was really happy being there for her (: . share . I suddenly Imagined a debut myself . which is weird couz I promised myself I will never think like that . I really never used to want one . but I fantasized like a kid . only not like her party with the princess type she's always wanted . A beach party ? I guess . I really don't like cotillon stuff . but not necessarily hate . I just don't want a debut like a prom . that would suck . I'd hate my parents for doing that to me if ever . share again ! I sang at her debut :)) I felt silly couz I forgot the lyrics of the song I was singing couz basically I wasn't any way prepared to sing . haha clumsy moment again . I guess I really will not forget about that debut of hers . so anyway . since the party was overnight . alcohol was all over the place . and the jam session was as well . so I ended up not sleeping at all . I was up all night texting elmo and re charging and texting . well the phone was condemned and I needed to keep recharging it after an hour or something . the date and time keep reseting and all that stuff . I really hate myself for losing my favorite phone :( anyway . I was up all night . I have a problem . what will happen to me during Mathplus in the morning ? haha simple answer . uber bangag . haha . James and Wilbur kept making fun of me knowing I was in that mind state :)) taking advantage :)) haha they picked on my shoe size . my mind being and all those things :)) so anyway due to almost all my body cells were tired and used up I like slept at the room . haha poor me . haha anyway . on the way home i slept on the bus as well . the thing is I woke up already before SM Bacoor but automatically . I fell asleep against my will . haha ! I ended up waking up infront of Robinson's Imus . epic :)) and when I came home my sleepiness over powered hunger . haha ! I mean it . after transferring from the hot room to the other room . I fell asleep . after the noise withdraw . I slept like a baby @.@ WTH 5 hours ? after so I ate like a monster @.@ hmmmmm . well not really . lassengga was still the last one to finish her meal . which was weird . dunno . she is kinda still the reason why i'm afraid of alcohol . I wanna be chubbier and all . but her size scares me . and I don't really know . drinking alcohol still scares me . can't even imagine myself O.o but I won't jump to conclusions . its just scary @.@ . so after doing so I went online . texted . and next thing I knew I was sleeping again @.@ . at 1O! wow :)) and woke up at almost 5 ? O.o wow thats so weird :)) but I kinda woke up with a reason . It was kinda melodramatic of me @.@ but I felt better I had that conversation . but I slept again after it . man . i'm such a sleepyhead :)) thats ok I guess ? at least I am getting a bit fatter :D

MiniSnorlax.♥

Ideal?

I woke early today . about 8.3O i guess . forgot about the dream I had the night before . senseless I guess . gone down to call sister to join me upstairs . watched a movie with her . washed up really early . gone down to the other cr to brush my teeth . ended up helping for the party tomorrow . just when I was about to eat . my mood suddenly changed . Kesha ordered me to make my sister fall asleep . so I decided to do so . I turned on the tv to help try if it works . well it did . and she fell asleep on my arms . it made me wonder again . I remember an answer I blurted out on a note sissy tagged me .

73. Want kids: uhm . honestly no. i'm kinda scared of what they'll be

It actually made me realize . that i'm scared because . I expected . I realized I wanted my child to be like my sister . a creature drafted with beauty and intelligence . the image I wanted a child to project . Ideal as it seems . I suddenly found myself imagining myself in the future . but the image was overpowered by the thought of my mother . her bearing my sister . her pains during child birth . my sister is an Insulin baby . is that the exchange for an ideal child ? I dont know . I just suddenly wanted a baby on my arms . not now . I am still building his/her future . hopefully what my parents would want . argh . gotta go . ill just blog some other time what i can't express now . this feeling is too complex to even understand now .

BigSister

BoredomAndSocialNetworks

a while ago boredom was really consuming me . I had to choose between missing Elmo or boredom . so I chose boredom . well the internet was teaming with it as well . A while ago blogger was on condemned maintenance . well I thought the dashboard would finally change like what they said . I was all excited and hyped . haha bummer . Plurk was on downtime a while ago as well . Plurkbuddy accidentally blocked everyone or something like that . Facebook really became a loser a while ago . most users were forced into a virus system . well more like a hacking system . my advise . change your passwords ! I hate facebook and all . but its the only thing I have to tell me i'm still human . blogger gave me my own world . plurk gave me a world with my virtual family . formspring and threewords is just a random site . and Ran is a virtual world created with nice and lurking people . I remember I said everything would change . well almost everything did change . Facebook now feels like a place invaded by aliens . my plurk family is almost gone . Ran is now too complex than it used to be . I almost can't find my old friends now . its sad I know . but I don't know . maybe this sadness is due to Elmo not here ? @.@ man . i've got issues :)) rawr I want to eat ice cream . its freakin boring not eating sweets . I want to visit the dearest candy bar I find . its really sad :| asdfghjkl; stop the drama again :))

IMissElmo(:

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I am so Busted :)) I am absent from Mathplus for 2 consecutive meetings already :)) wth is wrong with me ? :)) so anyway . today is not excused I guess . I totally suck :)) well anyway last night I had a conversation with my sister . we almost always converse our thoughts on a lot of issues . so anyways . she told me . "Why the hell in the world are you still using algebraic expressions? I don't wanna go to college anymore"--in Filipino Language. Well here I am doing my assignment . keeping quiet . suddenly bursted with rage and told her in filipino as well "WTF when you enter college . your freakin math will only be Business Math . Well for your information my course has a lot to do with the subject you loathe the most." . well I seriously didn't plan on being outrageous but the question just burst my bubble . It was very weird to tell her that she was very skeptical and very rude as well in asking that . I know math isn't my best subject . but i'm working on it . well everyone knows computer is still my best subject . almost a language now that i'm always using it here on blogger . well blogger is damned to have html and javascript in one blog only . I guess I would be editing my plurk background as well in the next few days . its freaky I know but . javascript and html are really a language now to my sight . well whatever so anyway . ill edit this blog again . its boring me out or I just wanna talk alien javascript again ? anyways ill try editing . i'm bored anyways . youtube sucks . couz basically my net sucks . and ill find a something to do for the quiz next meeting in Mathplus . im really a sucker ~.~ as if i'd totally do that . i'm awfully lazy @.@



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sistarr (:

**Filipino Mode

The post ! haha nice one sis :)) hinanap ko pa talaga sa wall mo yung post na yan para di ako magkamali :)) haha ganun pala aa :)) akala ko naman xDD pero pwede rin . pero im someone else's cookie monsturr . well more like moon cake sis :)) wth i seriously didn't intend in making the name of this blog moon and star :)) haha . FTW sis :)) haha . Tell me if this would be a delete post :)) na KV ako bigla :)) haha ewan ko kung bakit . :)) haha i miss you . sorii kung wala ako time masyado .

CookieMonsturrNiSistarrKo (: ♥

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I've had the time of my life :))
man boredom strikes back . so anyways . I seriously haven't blogged for days . well migraine was a reason . and laziness was an additive . so anyway i've got no choice but to bullet post (:

May 6 Friday

★ Madison's Birthday (:
★ She's full of glee
★ Jollibee Kid's crew mode in the morning just to keep away from trouble
★ Madison wasn't dancing with the others
★ Madison made and ate Jolly Hotdog ?
★ Madison still didn't dance
★ Madison had an assignment . A family picture
★ Which made me wonder a lot .
★ Depression moments
★ Got home
★ Forgot about the errands
★ Helped in preparing everything
★ Made friends with the Clowns
★ Expecting a Lot of visitors
★ I had mine . Besprend and Seatmate (: (Aerold and Ichan)
★ Happy moments
★ So happy they came :D
★ The party started like 4 ?
★ There were only a fewer guests than expected :(
★ Cheska said "hi" and "bye" again :D ♥
★ So sad I wasn't at her birthday
★ but still happy I was with Elmo ♥
★ Still sad though
★ Pictures with BebeJhonna ♥
★ Miss her again :(

May 7 Saturday

★ Mathplus Mode
★ No gala o:)
★ Saw some of the visitors from the day before go home
★ They greeted me Good luck with the field I chose . Engineering
★ Computer moments
★ Had sudden visitors from Pasig
★ I thought my favorite couz will be here :(
★ My other couz is only second year and he's a head taller than I am
★ and 3 times my body :|
★ They greeted me God Bless with the field I chose . Engineering
★ Nice greetings .
★ Miss all of them (:

May 8 Sunday

★ I freakin thought it was rest day
★ Super chores mode for me
★ Stared at my homework mode ?
★ Brownout due to Storm
★ Borrowed a phone couz I was low batt I guess ?
★ Brownout lasted for 2 hours I guess ?
★ I freakin left my phone charging while I was sleeping
★ Stupidity strikes

May 9 Monday

★ Phone got broken due to my stupidity again
★ Laundry day :D
★ I helped :D
★ And I got so damn tired after it
★ Did everything to make it work .
★ Insan suggested I use my other cousin's charger
★ Selfish as usual .
★ Losing hope
★ Wants a new phone already to stop this peril
★ Insan used her brother's charger by force .
★ Haha It worked

May 10 Tuesday

★ Psychological Exam day
★ Phone worked
★ Deciding whether to attend Mathplus or not
★ Still earlier than Bur and the other guys
★ Bur advised me to not join us on Mathplus
★ So I didn't
★ I waited for Ichan and the Pat A .
★ We accidentally saw Robee there as well
★ We waited for Elaine .
★ I told them I was hungry and invited them to eat with me at the canteen
★ They declined to eat but joined with me at the table :))
★ Scared Pat A a bit :))
★ Seated at the back at first
★ Was transferred to the front
★ Seated next to a very Mataray Fat Guy :|
★ Missed the opportunity of making friends with the cool kids at ECE who were seated behind my original seat :|
★ Really annoyed when I knew about it
★ Saw James when I got out . but he forgot to share what I needed for Mathplus :|
★ Saw Ina again . didn't know she had her Psychological the same day (:
★ Elmo was waiting outside the campus
★ Got my Encyclopedia . Handbook . ahm more like bagbook :))
★ Got my freak on again @.@
★ Why do I even become weird all of a sudden when i'm with him @.@
★ Didn't get to bite him
★ Felt like a kid again (:
★ Didn't get to convince Arjone to come
★ Having too much fun to want to go home
★ Don't want to go home
★ Stop time please
★ Time didn't listen :|
★ So I had to go home
★ Waited for a damned bus
★ Slept on the way home
★ Woke up on time before going off the bus
★ Stupidly slipped of the bus couz I just woke up . and some ugly men are on the way from the handle/bars :|
★ Still felt stupid when I was on the jeep
★ Phone got broken again . won't open :|
★ Everyone Laughed with me when I showed them my baghandbook .
★ Everyone Guffawed when they knew about me slipping from the bus .
★ Take a Bow Nicole . Take a bow

I just wanna say . I didn't get to join Pascal guys and the others . Sad really but I'm too tired . I miss being the smallest kid . haha . anyways . still haven't done anything to my fingernails . FiNALLY ! me and my pillow reunite :)) i missed this pillow :)) anyways I have a freakin homework and I need to finish this . Oh I wanna share . James told me I need to purchase a book or else ill fail the class . so no new other shirt for now I guess . only 1 ~.~ thats freakin boring ~.~

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