still a midnight post.

I feel weird I'm not supposed to blog on you anymore because it's sad and depressing. but I won't look back on my old post. I know I almost always only turn to you when I'm depressed. So I'm sorry if I'm pathetic. I decide to write here because you know I'm most comfortable with you. Anways I'm going. It's fucking 3 in the morning. And I can't fucking sleep. funny I'm using the word fucking. Anyways good night. It's not nice to be awake again at this hour.

One more thing. I think I'm stupid for once trying 30 day challenges. I really have commitment issues when it comes to strenuous duties like that. I edited my scribe and decided to delete those 30DC pages I made. I'm semi laughing at myself because they aren't even finished. yeah go laugh at your stupidity

late night post.

Can I be honest right now? I want to be drunk. It's rare for me to even want to drink alcohol. But now that I do, I realize I can't because at the end of it I want someone anyone for the matter to take care of me after that happens, and it won't so I won't get drunk. Sorry for being rude to you my dear blog. I just really wanted to spill my guts.