MyComplex

hmm . lets make a list shall we ? (to be edited when i use a pc ~.~)


• Gadget Complex
• Net Complex
• School Complex
• Gaming Complex
• Time Complex
• Love Complex


well the gadget complex is quite simple to explain . my dearest ipad is broken . the repair costs 6k . a freaky thought came to my mind on the way here to mendez from the grocery store . i was thinking of selling or sending to the pawnshop my other mobile ~.~ its freaky @.@


as for the net complex . i jist freakin regret having a wifi of some sort . well . everyone is always fighting over the net . especially me . i always request that at least during wednesday and saturday nights i get the net's fastest speed . its already totally unfair we cant upgrade the net . now they cant even let me get what i want at least for my sanity ~.~


well the next one is quite odd . i never expected myself . to consider it as a complex . i've never had difficulties in my studies before . why now ? :( i mean c'mon . am i really that stupid now ? I feel like a complete idiot :( i've lost self confidence . even my pride as a Noceda is depleted :( i feel so ashamed of myself. like im not worthy for anything anymore . maybe i'm not me anymore :(


this complex is somekind of the return . its not really a problem . its just a complex . an addition to stress . but without it . i probably would die of sadness . socially i kinda feel better when there .


well this is where the gaming becomes a complex . the clash with studies . im not saying i cant handle them both . the problem is how do i sleep ? i have to be honest . i cant make one work without the other :|


can i explain this complex some other time ? ~.~


thats all for now i guess . till next time :)


-- Godz`I-NicoLe-