Mannequin

I really hate the fact that the first ting that nanay did when she got home was re arrange the house . It left me disoriented and fucked up . It really feels like hell . Insults all over again

I wanna watch ARAFES T.T ハイイイイイイ :( this would be their last time in Kokuritsu for a while :( who knows after tokyo oplymics right?

UnnecessaryGuilt

if I had one wish for my birthday . I would really wish that people stop pretending to care when I know they don't . It sucks to pretend along with them . It's not that I don't trust my acting skills . its just . I really want them to stop . it makes me feel like shit all over . I know in fact how they don't care and they keep pretending . maybe  they need something from me . or I would need to do something for them . why can't they just leave me alone ? I want to be free from their unnecessary feelings of guilt or whatever for me . I won't be myself if I keep feeling something from them I hate this .