DeJaVu

as I may call it . I find myself . doing the same hobbies after 5 years . wasting my time . watching the same Anime . reading HP repeatedly as well with nothing more to read . me wanting and will do my best on learning the Japanese language again . I almost got courted by the same guy . but . I can't see myself with him anymore . I might want to live in the same timeline . but I can't seem to find myself wanting to be with him -_- . but there are things that would be different from this de javu . rather than me . entering T&C . its Madison going there now but its still of the same fact I graduated or something and will leave a school I only get to love on my final year . its almost always a bitter ending . another thing different is that . I don't have either of my parents when I leave this school . but the fact they forced me to schools I don't really know of . and am clueless of . I really don't know what lies ahead . maybe almost everything would happen again . accidents . laziness . stupidity . cramming . isn't there space for change ? I don't want to repeat every mistake I did in the past . its rude . and wrong of me . to want . but not do anything for change . and one more thing . I don't want to talk about change anymore . I keep saying it . -_- I am so redundant about that on posts -_- i'll try not to talk about it too much -_-

unli._.