/randomrants

I was thinking a lot again . awful lonely times . Just when classes are about to start . I suddenly didn't want them to start . but again it switched to wanting to go to school . /mixed feelings . Its still awkward . I am still clueless . i've been to a lot of different schools . I still remember the feeling of being alien . not knowing about anything i'd enter the following school year . St. Therese . Don Bosco . Woodridge . I went to schools having only one year to appreciate that school and leave . then came Harrell and to be honest . I loathed that school . even if it was the first real school I had for years . I vacated the school for 3 years . and when opportunity struck . I fled the school . I seriously love learning . but I hate the schools I enter . I even hated the school I entered for high school: Divine Light, for 3 years . I've only learned to appreciate them on my last year . I personally think school is cruel and awfully filled with people you don't want to be with . for some reason . I really wonder . how I managed to survive 12 years of my life . controlling all emotion from the world . not really caring about humans but earth itself . humans are selfish . taking whatever they see . wanting everything for themselves . fending on their hunger for power . I even hate myself for being such vicious creature . /faceslap I guess I need my mom's old talisman on me again . my mind is being possessed . I guess .