Listen

Can you please listen? couz recently I've been feeling like no one wants to listen to me. I realize how much of a non speaker I really am. I've been soo used to silence that I don't know how to communicate now. I realize now how much I hurt other people by being silent. But how can I change? I've been soo used to it that I do it subconsciously. Funny. People are used to it as well that they don't listen. Well now is kinda different. Someone wants to listen to me. He wants me to speak up. Something I don't know how to do anymore. He keeps asking me. I keep failing him. I don't think I've ever agitated a person like this in my whole life and its kinda scary and draining. I keep failing. I hope I don't resort to bad things.