ちょとやばい

I know it's bad

and I shouldn't do it

but sometimes

I really fall in love with bases

Sometimes I play music, unexpectedly loud

but I can't get mad at myself because I love the sound.

I know I hurt my ears

but music is really irresistible to me

If I hear it crisp and it matches my preference.

I end up listening to a whole song on that volume.

This is the song that made me realize it.

I hope you guys enjoy the beat.

ーメイコ

It finally came :> ♡

あの。I forgot to mention yesterday.

I finally got the gift I gave myself last month!

嬉しいです。٩(♡ε♡ )۶

超嬉しい　˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*♡

 I don't know what else to say but happy ♡

I even got a bonus flyer of 鋼の錬金術師。

幸せです　(ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ♡

ーメイコ

子供っぽいじゃない？

Since I missed yesterday and I am kind of bored I was thinking maybe I should make like 2 posts? It's ok right? As much as I hate to admit it I'm turning into an adult who wants to do little girl activities she was never able to do as a kid. Can I be honest? I feel like there were lots of things I wasn't able to do as a kid. I wanted to play certain video games but I didn't have the CDs. I wanted certain toys but my mom never really buys toys for me. It was like a once in a year thing that I have to decide on when I'm on the mall or something. There are places I wanted to go to but I don't think my mom really like travelling too much like how I was always yearning for it since I was young. So I feel like recently I've been gifting myself all of the things I want for myself. Like my headphones, clothes, and all the random trinkets I have. Recently, I've been wanting to buy myself concert goods. I really want to buy some for myself. I feel sad I can't buy the newest concert goods from HSJ concert. I only had money after those pre selling of goods. I feel sad I don't think I'll be able to get the latest good. I wonder what to do? I'll try buying old goods or something. or maybe I'll go buy from the Arashi concert. This time I'll really be able to buy something. I'm not sure tho? I bought the Are You Happy Diary last year because it was functional. I'm not sure but I really want pen lights recently. I wonder if I should buy? I think they're not really functional but I still want them. Maybe because I've been watching so many concert videos lately that I feel like I might be in the concert itself if I watch it with a penlight. I feel childish but I feel really strongly about this. Aia. I feel like I'm going to work a lot just so I can start collecting pen lights. I don't think I'll collect posters too much? Maybe just one or 2 would be good for me o.o I don't know I'll think about it. For now, I'll go and enjoy what I can. じゃ。

ーメイコ

I'm listening to flower boys but I'm lucky to listen to something feminine too.

I realize how agreeable I really am. I was just having a discussion a while ago and here I am listening to what they like. haha. I don't know. I'm a little too low and I guess I have no love right now but love for my students. Thank you for cheering me up. Sorry if I can't share what I need cheering up from but thank you.

ーメイコ

伊野尾慧💙

I don't think I need to say anything more.

ーメイコ

2019 Japanese trip might become a reality?

I'm writing this and I'm not even sure if everyone knows but I like Arashi very much and even especially Hey Say Jump lately. I didn't even realize that this year is Hey Say Jump's 10th anniversary. I've been randomly telling students I want to go to Japan at 2019, but now I'm really considering whether or not to go by then. I see myself in this scenario by that time, I'm either here as a teacher still, or I might be in a different country teaching. I'm not sure who but I remember telling one student I want to teach in either Japan, Kazakhstan or even at Italy. So yeah. Why do I want to be at Japan on 2019? Arashi's 20th Anniversary. I dunno if I'll be able to get tickets tho? From what I heard you need to live in Japan to be able to get tickets to go there. haha. Forget Olympics, I don't think I'll be able to get some to watch something as trivial as a Japanese concert.I kinda want to say I'm learning Japanese because of something as trivial as bands. I don't want to make it too complex anymore. I mean I haven't been updated, it's only recently I knew that Hey Say Jump is getting more and more famous lately. Even their stuff is kinda expensive. I also kinda decided late to buy, the pre orders of buying their stuff is done now. haha. so nevermind. Since I'm bored I decided to show you guys the only fan girl item I have right now. At least I can use it right?

PS: It seems I can't take the JLPT exam this December, I didn't know the registration is only until August 29. haha If I've know I would have submitted but it seems it's not meant to be yet. I'll try next year :) By then I'll be really ready. Maybe this is even the world's way of telling me to focus on TESOL. I dunno? Hopefully not. I miss learning Japanese with my friends. I'll go bother them now. See you! :D

ーメイコ

良い音楽

I just felt like it's a really good song. It's 4 in the morning yeah. I can't sleep so here.

another resolution?

I don't know why but there are lots of things wrong with skype today. I just wanted to share. Today my love for classical music is back. And it's making me want to learn how to play the piano again. I don't know what else to do with myself because I love it soo much. I decided I really want to make reviews for all media. I mean movie, show whichever I watch or observe. I want to remember at the end of the year all of the things I watched and didn't watch. So yeah I will need to use the other blogs I have. Ok note. I watched Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children then Suicide Squad last Sunday. Yeah. I just decided that when I was typing it. Ok so I need to make a review for NigeHaji and then an anime I didn't expect I'd watch. Well. I was planning on just reading the manga then I saw this and remembered this is a music centered manga that has an anime so I decided why not try to watch the anime instead so I can feel the emotions of the show. I watched it last night and this morning. 四月は君の嘘. So yeah. I have to make proper reactions hopefully later or tomorrow. ugh I hope I can finish all of them. Oh I should make it a habit as well to tell you guys whenever I do watch anything. This might be all for now. Oh I'll share my most favorite classical piece. I hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do :) This piece almost always makes me cry you know! I love it that much.

ーメイコ