忘れられない日

As everybody knows by now, I'm very critical of myself which I think is part of the reason I think I don't have much friends.

I'm trying not to be.

So here is my JUMPaper. (On a completely different platform from the others who made the same)

I started my day kind of late than usual. I mean I normally get up when I wake up at 6 but I kinda fell asleep again. I ended up leaving later than planned. I left at 9. Which I have to say I regret doing so because traffic was not expected. especially here in Cavite.

I was the last to come unfortunately haha. It's embarrassing. I hate being late. side note as to why. I live far away so I take it as a challenge to come earlier than everyone else. so I hate that I failed this time. at an event I don't know anyone. I'm afraid of giving the impression I'm always late because 8/10 times I am always on time or earlier. except on really bad days.

To be honest, I know the venue more than the meeting place so It was kind of a struggle really. I used to live in Mandaluyong but now I feel inadequate being there and getting lost.

At first I was thinking of staying behind because I really didn't know anyone. Just as I was about to go out and like look for something to cool down on because I kinda ran around looking for the meeting spot stupid lost Meiko someone tapped my shoulder and said hi. good work social skills, someone had to talk to you first before you make friends tsk.

I was honestly very nervous because I don't really have friends in the fandom. I don't consider myself to be a die hard fan of HSJ, I just know a lot about them because I've known them for a long time now and I'm the type to like something even without the influence of others. So almost all of the things that interest me right now are things I don't get from others and even if I do get some from others, I seem to like them on my own and I sometimes surpass those that introduce me and stuff.

I was really surprised that people in the fandom are really nice and very different from what I imagined. I kind of have stories that people that usually have parties are usually just friends with one another so I'm really happy that this thought was immediately thrown out of the window.

Like I said, I was really not expecting anything during the party, although I was expecting myself to become a part of the background while I was there. But the atmosphere was so fun I ended up getting more excited than I was thinking I would. I was lip-syncing to almost all of the songs that were playing. I feel kinda bad tho because I don't remember/listen to their old songs soo much. The songs I mostly listen to are only the ones when I started following them again until now so that means recently.

I feel very happy I said yes to Alla when she told me to go. I feel really happy and lucky I got to talk to her. but now that I think about why I message her, I forgot to ask for the hsjxkismyft2 24 hour sp. sorry I don't know their acronym I think I should go and ask her again o.o

I got to join 2 games! The first one I was bad at it, I thought I had confidence but it seems I'm not good at it. Most of the songs that were played were during the time I wasn't too active. I have trouble remembering songs from that time. And the songs that I did know I feel like I was spacing out. That game was really fast you know!

I don't see myself as an expert/otaku when it comes to HSJ, but it seems I am. I won the game for the kind of quiz. There were some questions that I honestly wasn't sure about. cough I might be the last person to ask for rumors Also It's Arioka Daisuke. We were technically correct. To be honest, Okamoto's question was one of those that I was sure about. So I kept looking at the board if I was standing at the wrong place. I wasn't really looking at the board I was only listening I'm a small person sorry. So I'm trying my best not to be guilty I finished the game a bit early. I felt like I was a party pooper. I didn't want to spoil the fun TwT Why didn't anyone join me at D? TwT

I really tried my best to make friends. So whenever I was idle I started talking to those who were near me. So by the end of the event, I think I made a fair amount of friends :)

I was planning on buying uchiwas but I didn't see any Inoo uchiwas. I was thinking of buying Chinen's but I really feel incomplete if I didn't start with Inoo, so I guess maybe next time :) Too bad the only solo posters also didn't have Inoo. I don't know why but the lady selling the goods knew I was an Inoo fan because she started showing me Inoo's shop photos before everything else, she really baited me. I spent almost 1k with the clear file I have been eying this for months and his photos and one group photo from fantastic time favorite single as of now.

I want to thank Daicoke for being there with me the whole day. I felt a bit bad because she has a sissy there and yet she sat next to me the whole day because I had no other friends. I feel very happy and lucky to have met you :)

I got lucky with the exchange gift as well. I don't have a car but I like pillows anyways. Thank you soo much Edeline. She thinks it's not good but I think it was perfect. It even goes well her Ichiban Yuya. He's the only member who has a reputation for driving.

Anyway I forgot to mention at the start of the event there was a registration. I didn't really know what it was for, I was thinking for mementos or something. I'm a scrap planner girl. Who knows if the admins are like that too? It was actually for raffles. I did not expect my lucky stars to bless me yesterday. I got a trading card and the grand prize! A smart poster! I was talking to Jihan how lucky the person who'll get it because I don't see anymore goods other than the t shirt being sold for smart goods. I ended up laughing a lot at how I really didn't expect to get it. I didn't know what else to say after that so I just ended up laughing a lot and talking to others.

I'm awkward so I don't know, I tried to make friends with the only fanboy in the event Keisuke. It's surprising he's also a long time fan now. 2011 or 2010 I think. Makes me wonder if he has other guy friends who also like HSJ, oh these were my thoughts when I was at the event.

I also made friends with Marga. I'm surprised we have the same name. I actually didn't get my goodie envelope at the end of the event because I thought they were calling her. So haha sorry to the admins because I totally didn't know if you were calling me. Other than our names we have a lot similar. Both of our top favorite members are the same, for the 2 groups that we like.

I guess I'm lucky to have this day. A bit unlucky going home, but nothing is going to faze me. I really enjoyed yesterday. This is unexpectedly a novel. aia better finish it now then. hehe. おやすみ。

ーメイコ

not yet a review I just felt like sharing

I don't know why but I felt like sharing. I'm watching a drama 

人は見た目が１００パーセント

I'm excited. I love all three actresses. and I think I'm kind of falling in love with Narita Ryo as well. I wonder how the story will go.

ーメイコ

やる気がある！

Just some words I wish to learn

I don't know about others

but I've had some students discouraging me to learn Kanji.

Just to let you guys know,

that actually motivates me more.

Don't ever think it's not worthy to be learned.

Your language is beautiful.

Personally?

I wish I learned even earlier.

I only started using memrise again.
I need to start over I think?

ーメイコ

It finally came :> ♡

あの。I forgot to mention yesterday.

I finally got the gift I gave myself last month!

嬉しいです。٩(♡ε♡ )۶

超嬉しい　˭̡̞(◞⁎˃ᆺ˂)◞*♡

 I don't know what else to say but happy ♡

I even got a bonus flyer of 鋼の錬金術師。

幸せです　(ﾉ´ヮ´)ﾉ*:･ﾟ♡

ーメイコ

ラブ❤︎コム

I can't help myself but be a kid.

I don't know why but I've been reading lovely complex for 2 nights already

and I squeal like a little girl!

ugh I can't help it.

I think I'll always love this manga.

I haven't even read all of it (I started at the end)

yet I find myself squealing at the same moments I did 10 years ago.

haha I guess at least some things never change.

ーメイコ

Complains about Code Blue probably

OH MY GOD!

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT

本当？ありえない

I just watched episode 9 of Code Blue Season 3

全然ありえないよ！

I want to watch Episode 10 already!

( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)( ≧Д≦)

I can't watch it yet tho!

There are no subs on it yet! I can't understand the drama by itself because of the medical terms

(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o(;｀O´)o

I feel like crying! I hope someone finishes the sub soon

щ(ಥДಥщ)

When will it come?

ふう〜

Calm down Meiko. It'll come. Calm down.

See. They're calm. Calm down.

I feel like crying haha.


ーメイコ

(the gif was from a different episode.)

テキストは菅田将暉に関するものではありません

I don't know why but I felt like sharing a video again. I don't really know what to talk about today because I'm a little bit under the weather and I didn't really know what to do with myself today. I was really pushing myself to be 元気 a while ago. I really wanted to make everyone feel good today so I tried my best to be happy. Today is not in vain tho I got good comments that made me happy as well. I guess another push for me to always move forward. Thank you everyone. From the bottom of my heart

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Not a review yet. I might make a review?

Right now I wish I know how to play or at least know the rules to shogi. I'm currently watching 3月のライオン 前編 I felt like watching Kamiki Ryunosuke after a long time! I really missed watching him so here I am now watching it. I still haven't watched the 2nd movie yet. I think I might watch it tomorrow instead. Uwaaaa! I feel like binge watching Kamiki movies! I forgot how much I love him actually. I guess talking about him a while ago in made me want to watch again. So here I am now wanting to watch almost a list of movies he acted in. I feel inadequate right now and want to watch more! I feel like I'm not a real fan right now. I even thought I watched that one with the Daruma san but then I realized I didn't! I guess I was excited for other manga adaptations. I really love manga adaptations even tho, like this one, I haven't read a lot of manga myself. Well I do feel like most of the time, the movies are works of their own. I don't think movies are supposed to follow everything from the manga. I think it's good they have their own path too. This might be it for me. Good night :)

ーメイコ

PS. I still haven't finished my review for pink to grey. aia. I think I might be in trouble here.

Shoma stan yet again.

I feel like nothing more can be said than amazing. I feel happy I could watch this. I feel a bit sad tho because I can't watch it live because of work but really, I feel happy. I love Antonio Vivaldi. I love four seasons. And I love this guy. haha. I love that after his triple axel he directly made a spread eagle. It's really cool! I want to say something more cool but I don't know yet right now. I want to watch it more. I'm still waiting for the free skate tomorrow yet I'm already waiting for Internationaux de France where he will perform this again. I'm hoping he will be at the Grand Prix Finals. I can't imagine him and Yuzuru not being there together. aia. I'm so used to their little ritual at the Grand Prix Final podium already. oh please oh please. Anyways. this might be all for now. I'm afraid I'll talk about his program too much if I think about it. See you later!

ーメイコ

文法

I had a lot of open classes today, but I think that's ok because today I finished 16 grammar topics by myself this morning. And more on the way because I'm studying again. I also was able to watch some ItaJan when it was a bit too much for me. Last night I had 27 grammar points as well. Well most of what I'm reading are things I know of or concepts I already know of and just understanding now what they really mean. So I hope nobody gets mad at me for doing it too fast or something. I honestly understand most of them. I also plan on making a proper notebook as well to make sure everything I watched/listened to are correct. I am still far from confident in my speaking ability so I want to build a foundation. It just so happen most of what I'm reading and watching are concepts that are familiar already. I hope everything works out ok in the end. Well that might be all for now. I want to go back to my grammar lessons! See you!

ーメイコ

苦手です

I ended up doing grammar lessons for today. There are some concepts that I know already but I guess learning everything properly is better I guess? I mean I understand mostly from what I listen to or observe. So I guess listening to a proper teacher about grammar gives perspective and sense to things properly. I should have really done things like this way before. I wasted a lot of learning time I guess. Well I can't help it. People have different conditions and mistakes. I better make it right now. I'll try to finish the first 50 lessons I guess? I mean most of them I know and just want to make sure of? who knows? Or I guess 30/40 mini lessons would be ok? I started at lesson 20 anyways. Sorry. I was planning on talking about what I did yesterday. Maybe I'll post it tomorrow but set the date to yesterday ok? I feel like if someone looks at my notes they wouldn't understand it, even a Japanese person wouldn't understand. haha. I'm really sorry an object that only Meiko understand is this (笑)

ーメイコ

SEIMEI IS BACK!

I NEED TO GIVE A SEPARATE BLOGPOST FOR THIS. I LOVE IT. I REALLY LOVE IT. I was busy this weekend and yesterday that I only got to watch it today! ugh I love it! Just the 3Loop that was downgraded! Ugh imagine what could have happened if it was perfect! Ugh! But it's only the start of the season! Ugh! hahahaha I can't I can't I am so excited for Skate Canada where Uno Shoma will perform next! I'll get into details maybe later because for now I want to watch other skaters haha sorry.

ーメイコ

ピーチガール

I'm crying. I'm dying. hahahaha. I can't live on. hahahaha. as much as I want to post something. I don't think I'll be able to really put anything that is valuable because my mind is full of Peach girl. I've been waiting for this for months I guess. I can't believe it. I'm here now. I watched it, and honestly, I don't understand all of the conversations but I got the gist of most of it. Ugh! I can't believe it! I waited soo long for this. And I have to download it again because the ending got cut. haha. I can't believe it. The most important part wasn't shown completely. hahahaha This is the worst. 今テンションMAXだ（笑）すみません I don't know what else to do. haha I might make a review of it on the other blog I have. This might be all for now. I'm too happy right now.

ーメイコ

Radio shows as learning material?!

I wanted to share something I have been doing lately. I'm not sure how much I've stressed this but for me It's painfully obvious how much I've been saying I'm into Hey Say Jump lately right? I've been listening to their radio shows on YouTube for a few days already. That and 嵐の二宮和也の Bay Storm. There are no English translations, so I am semi forced to know what words are for what they really are. I try to get the sense of the conversations and I feel like I've been kinda getting better at it. I don't know maybe my vocabulary is getting better? I hope so. I'm going to do grammar lessons later tonight, but now I feel like challenging myself to listen/read radio shows. I don't know maybe this actually lets me focus better on the language rather than TV Shows like I used to. I'm more focused on the shows themselves rather than what they are saying, so I guess this is better? I don't also depend on English texts but Japanese texts, so maybe my kanji reading would also improve? I know I've been telling other students about it but I still want to share. For me learning Kanji is really essential and something important when learning Japanese. These radio shows are helping me so I recommend trying them for my friends who want to learn Japanese! :D Also a student of mine recommended to have bilingual news! I recommend this too but unlike the radio shows on YouTube, you can't see any texts. So you might tend to listen to it a lot more than you would. hmmm I think I might need to explain this a bit?

When I listen to radio shows on YouTube, as much as possible a try to read and listen at the same time, but sometimes there are texts that I feel like I can read, so before the member who gets to say the script I pause it first and try to read myself. I kind of reward myself if I hear them say the same thing as my guess. I also can write down exactly what they say and don't have to worry too much about getting the kanji wrong because it's right in front of me and I can somehow do furigana if I'm not familiar with the kanji I just wrote. For grammar? I'm actually trying to learn how to express, want, wish, need, command, requests etc recently so it also kind of give me clues on how to express those. I feel like I'm lucky if I can spot them. Or more like I make myself try to notice them. I really wish I can hold my own when trying to have conversations in Japanese. すごく2019年に日本に行きたい。I hope by then I can have normal conversations. Next year really! I will aim for JLPT! ೕ(`･୰･´) がんばります

ーメイコ

子供っぽいじゃない？

Since I missed yesterday and I am kind of bored I was thinking maybe I should make like 2 posts? It's ok right? As much as I hate to admit it I'm turning into an adult who wants to do little girl activities she was never able to do as a kid. Can I be honest? I feel like there were lots of things I wasn't able to do as a kid. I wanted to play certain video games but I didn't have the CDs. I wanted certain toys but my mom never really buys toys for me. It was like a once in a year thing that I have to decide on when I'm on the mall or something. There are places I wanted to go to but I don't think my mom really like travelling too much like how I was always yearning for it since I was young. So I feel like recently I've been gifting myself all of the things I want for myself. Like my headphones, clothes, and all the random trinkets I have. Recently, I've been wanting to buy myself concert goods. I really want to buy some for myself. I feel sad I can't buy the newest concert goods from HSJ concert. I only had money after those pre selling of goods. I feel sad I don't think I'll be able to get the latest good. I wonder what to do? I'll try buying old goods or something. or maybe I'll go buy from the Arashi concert. This time I'll really be able to buy something. I'm not sure tho? I bought the Are You Happy Diary last year because it was functional. I'm not sure but I really want pen lights recently. I wonder if I should buy? I think they're not really functional but I still want them. Maybe because I've been watching so many concert videos lately that I feel like I might be in the concert itself if I watch it with a penlight. I feel childish but I feel really strongly about this. Aia. I feel like I'm going to work a lot just so I can start collecting pen lights. I don't think I'll collect posters too much? Maybe just one or 2 would be good for me o.o I don't know I'll think about it. For now, I'll go and enjoy what I can. じゃ。

ーメイコ

I missed a day!

悔しいけど I missed a day. (；￣Д￣）I really wanted to complete October with at least one blog post a day. What happened last night? I started watching Code Blue 3. haha. I'm posting this now because I think I might watch again later. hahaha. I was enjoying it so much I slept really late last night. I don't even know how I am keeping myself awake right now. I am a coffee hater but I might just bring myself to drink some later. Who knows? aia. I hope I don't get sleepy after eating lunch. I'm just about to eat. Anyways I'm excited to watch Code Blue again later. I was very happy. Well I've been planning to watch it for a while now and a student of mine mentioned it, so I guess I took it as a sign to really watch it. I don't regret it! haha I just have a hard time watching really. So many medical terms and I have to pause a lot to understand mostly what is happening. I'm amazed that student of mine could follow. haha. it was hard. I'll watch it again later! For now I will eat lunch! haha! See you again tomorrow! :D 

ーメイコ

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織田信成💜

I don't know about you guys but I'm totally going to fan girl on this 30 year old bad ass who can do Quad toe loops. I love Oda san so much. He's so adorable and look at him here, so graceful. I feel unlucky to not have been able to watch him when he was still in competitions. Uwaa. I watched this last night but I had a post already last night, I was kinda planning on at least only posting once a day. I'm kinda sick right now so I think this might be all I can talk about today. I'm also working on my freelance stuff. I don't know but it seems kinda unlucky? because this is the only day off I have and I'm still working. I hope I can talk to everyone again tomorrow! Have a good day :)

ーメイコ

お疲れ

今日。。。ちょっと難しいです。I did not expect to teach almost all day to kids. I really wonder how much of them liked me o.o I'm scared I'll just be hated or something o.o I also got a little something a while ago. I didn't expect it too much anymore because I've been failing a lot recently. lol. but let me share anyways.

I'm not sure but maybe because I have bad comments. That's why I don't have too many students there. So they suggested I teach materials especially for them. I don't know what to expect yet. For now. I'll just say good night happy I've had クロッケ that I haven't eaten in a while. I'm happy. and I'm a little bit really tired. I kept watching いただきハイジャンプ after working and now I didn't realize I'm about to sleep already. I must be really tired. haha. I'll say good night now. :) おやすみ

ーメイコ

Alpacas in 栃木県 😍

Today, I've been on a bit of a roller coaster. I feel happy that it is the first time in a while that I have full classes on a weekday. I feel happy because I have a lot of kids in my class today. But I think I'm starting to doubt whether kids like me or not. I'm not sure? Not all of the kids were smiling. I know I like to say ニコニコ知ってね whenever I talk to them. They don't smile too much tho? :( I wonder if how I teach is not too good for them. :( どうしようかな？I guess I need to think about it more tonight. I have lots of kids to talk to tomorrow it seems. Well I have to say today, almost everyone I talked to is new. Except one person. I wanted to share a bit what we talked about today because I became really excited and I did not expect it. So what was so special about our talk a while ago? I did not expect him to talk about an animal that is local in South America to be located in Japan. What am I talking about?

These adorable creatures called alpacas! I want to go to Japan like right now just so I can finally be able to see these cute creatures. I really thought they could only be found in South America. So that's why lots of Japanese shows and varieties show alpacas! I didn't know there were some in Japan! That's so cooooool! I've known about alpacas when I was in high school, I think. A friend of mine showed me pictures of alpacas and how fluffy they were. I even found a blog dedicated to alpacas, which is why I've always kinda wanted to see one in real life for a long time. It seems I don't need to go to South America anymore to see one! I can't wait for the time I go to Japan now! haha I feel like a kid wanting to go to the zoo. haha forgive me. I'm too excited. I have to be honest about something. I feel bad I haven't been doing my school work lately. I promise to do them next week! I promise to finish the last exam for work today. After that I don't know if I'll take exams there anymore. Next week, I promise to finish at least 4 exams on my certificate. I need to make it to the halfway mark! Ok I have a goal. I have to promise myself to do it! I hope everyone supports me! :D For now, I am going to work on my freelancing work. I hope to finish them tonight so I can focus on teaching tomorrow. See you guys tomorrow! :)

ーメイコ

休み

It's my day off today! :D I wanted to share these pictures of my day today! :D Just a few snippets. I guess today is a good day. :)

At first I was thinking about just blogging about ピンクとグレー because I was watching just that this morning. haha but I found myself going out to buy some things that I think can help me teach :) well, honestly they are toys. haha I know but I have a reason! I'm hoping to be able to teach a lot of kids :) I'm kinda nervous to be honest but I am also excited. haha see! I made 2 stars rather than just one. I might even make more. haha who knows? Also. It's my first time to have a Kendama! oh yeah! I hope I learn how to play with this. it's plastic tho? I hope I get the hang of this :) I hope you guys enjoy your day! :)

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