InsecureMeIsBack

wow I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while. my 日本語 is slowly progressing. kinda slowly but surely. I dunno. My self esteem is down in the dumps again. I feel insignificant and troubled. I've been having frustrating incidents again. Too many mistakes thats why I feel down. I really need help but I hate asking (one thing I realized a few days ago) I really have communication problems ne? It's really unbecoming of me to be like this. I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. I feel numb again. I also think I'm going to disappoint someone again. I really hate expectations and making someone expect something from me. I'm not reliable nor am I dependable. Independence is out of the question. Ugh. I'm cheering myself up with 日本の歌 again. Oh by the way I have sleeping problems again. Which is really annoying. For one it's because of mosquitos second because of stress and the need for self actualization again. Eeck! Gotta go. I have classes. じゃね

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