BirthdayBlues

I never lose reasons to hate myself during my birthday. I really want to keep everyone special near me but I don't want to take advantage of anyone anymore. I don't want to hurt others anymore. I want to bear this pain. I don't want to see other people disappointed in me again. I feel like I'm the biggest jerk. I'm sorry blog but I'm not in love anymore. And I don't think I deserve to be. I don't love myself anyways. So I guess I don't deserve to be loved. I really hate myself. I need to stop before I break down

Get up get up get up get up
Time to make amends for what you've done
Get up get up get up get up
Running with the demons in your head
Let's shout it out completely
Never really want to know
Let's shout it out, we're screaming