OctoberBum

In all honesty . I've been waiting for October since July . but in all honesty . the only good thing that came out of October is the fact that I'm back to school . but in general . October sucks . I really hate this month . I can state lots of good things this month but I really hate this month right now . too many bad things I think keep happening one thing after another . I really feel depressed and hurt . too many negative feelings . But I want to state the positives .

I want to say that Brent and Ate Gale lives with us now . I really think Brent is a good influence for me right now . We have this mutual need for one another . I think he needs someone to shower him with affections . and that's what I've been doing . I really think he needs all the attention he can get so I give it to him . He's a very kind kid . I want to point out that he doesn't fight back when you hit him . which is sad . couz' he can't defend himself and he just cries . I really want him to be comfortable as a person . I don't want him to become someone like me . I want to say the good thing he does for me . He's a stress outlet for me . This might be rude but I would describe his effect on me like a pet's effect on his master . You know . like after a long day, you get home and find your pet very glad to see you . which makes you (as a master) happy as well . when you pat a pet's head or snuggle . you get that effect . It relieves you of stress . that's his effect on me . He actually waits for me and sleeps with me . It makes me very happy to have him and it makes me very happy to take care of him . Tho I have to reprimand him from time to time to let him know if he did something wrong . Well he isn't used to life here yet so I guess I really need to have a good eye on him .

--ニコル