I feel really miserable again . like I don't have any more right to be happy
Well that is to be expected . for one . I did disobey one of the ten commandments
"Thou shall honor thy mother and father"Well I did freakishly consumed myself only yo loathe my father since the day he hurt my sister . He did humiliate us and I feel really scarred . I feel unworthy of anything . you basically feel that way if your own father dishonors you .
I also feel empty when I look at this house . this is a house . but I feel like . this will never be a home for me anymore . I feel familiar to this place at the same time alienated by it . I feel really lonely .
All these responsibilities . All these worries . I really feel like I am nothing of my age . I really feel old now . like I never lived life on the right age . I feel really sad .
sorry but this isn't a rant anymore . I'm not angry . I'm miserable
Thanks friend,
--NicoLe`
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